Fluid resus - septic again!

Well what an eventful few days. He went up at 2pm to get a line into him and they ended up having to do full fluid resus on him. He became unstable and they needed quick access so had to put needle's into his bone marrow to give him fluid and drugs. They then managed to secure his femoral leg vein. So, he didn't want to come off the ventilator. A half hour procedure became 2.5 hours for us to see him. We went in and his vent tube was coming out of his mouth, they'd had to ventilate him quickly. They had jelly on his eyes - which as you can see from his picture he had a reaction to. They put him on two very strong antibiotics. He was septic (again). He decided after an hour he didn't really like the tube in his mouth and vomited everywhere. I'm ashamed to say it was too much for me. I had to leave him with his daddy. I've never cried seeing him in picu but for some reason the thought of them going into his bone, the jelly over his eyes as he was trying to open them and him vomiting was just too much. Needless to say if they'd have watched and waited like they wanted to originally then it could have been a very different story. So that was another night in picu! Tuesday he lay in bed all day not happy. Yesterday afternoon we gave him a dose of codene to see if it helped him out of bed. I'm glad to say he was like a different child. We went to the play room, he played laughed and ate for the first time in two weeks :) thank god.